Friday, May 29, 2015

Last Day of Kindergarten

Dear P,

It's Friday. Today's the last day of school before summer vacation. It seems like kindergarten only started yesterday, the year truly did fly by.

I'm so proud of you. You've matured so much the past year. You have a great group of friends. You're able to figure out how to make compromises so that everyone gets to have a say in your play scenarios. You are able to articulate what makes you happy, what makes you sad, and what you find annoying. It's precious listening to you. You sound so much older than six years old. And, it's especially darling because you are about the size of a typical four year old.

I'm also very proud of how far you've come academically. You've picked up so much Spanish and math and reading. You've nearly memorized the Almanac your friend, Gabe, gave you and you're able to make connections to facts you've read in the book with conversations you have with us and with your friends. You're comfortable with time and money and numbers into the thousands. Your favorite books right now are the Who Is/Who Was series of biographies. We currently have Maria Tallchief, Marco Polo, Leonardo da Vinci, Abraham Lincoln, Gold Rush, and Louis Armstrong on loan from the library and Laura Ingalls Wilder on hold. See? It's fun feeding your thirst for knowledge.

It's been a good year for me as well. Last year, I was still transitioning from old work to new work. This year, I feel comfortable with the amount of time I got to spend at school and with you. I feel healed from the scars of old work. And, I'm excited about another summer with my slightly older kid. It's also been a good year because I've finally begun wrangling my way back to wellness. I want to be a good role model for you. And, I've been wrangling our house back to sanity. I don't want you to feel like you live in a pig sty.

I feel like my little kid isn't such a little kid anymore. I think from now until middle school, you're my big kid - my big kid who loves dance and swim and math and reading. Then, you'll be a tweenager before I know it. I guess it's time to say good-bye to my little kid years and hello to my big kid years. I'm sure I'll enjoy them as much as I have the first six.


Love,
your mommy

Thursday, May 28, 2015

Lunch Walks Among Us

Dear Friends and Family,

Yesterday's popsicle party was a huge success. Many popsicles were eaten, many bubbles were blown, many chalk drawings were drawn, and three bird were rescued by the park professionals.

At the party, we were talking with a couple of parents about how much parenthood had changed since we were children. It started with being able to play and roam unattended since our kids were essentially running free in the park and it was a special treat to reflux to vaccines to ADD and ADHD to all sorts of other things we need to worry about now that our parents didn't need to worry about.

And, it got me thinking, there are things where the actual number of people with X has been going up like peanut allergies. Then there are things where the actual number is staying the same but the diagnosis of it is going up like reflux. For those things in the latter category, where the actual number of people with X is staying the same, just diagnosis of X is on the rise, it means X is walking among us in the same proportion of the population in adults as in children. The undiagnosed adults who had ADHD as children are working in cubes next to my old cube and Mr. mouse's current office. The undiagnosed adults who had reflux as children are eating at restaurants next to us when we go out to dinner. The undiagnosed walk among us. And, largely, they seem fine.

Does that mean we're worrying ourselves over nothing? If things worked out okay in the end then does intervention make sense? Or does intervention make the journey to the end easier and less painful? I'm not sure. We medicated P for reflux. And, I don't let her roam unattended. And, I think I would her intervene if ADD or ADHD came up. But, I need to remember there are all sorts of things that walk among us in adults who went undiagnosed as children. And, they seem fine.


Cheers!
mouse

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Wednesday, Hump Day

Dear Friends and Family,

It's Wednesday already.

I think the long weekend threw me off more than I realized. That and the fact that I spent almost the entire day yesterday doing laundry. There was a comforter that I needed to clean. It gave off a really noxious smell when it came out of the wash so I ran it through a dozen more times. By dinner, I felt like it had gotten to the "good enough" point and threw it in the dryer. There's something about the detergent that the last cleaner used that does not play well with our detergent at home. Sigh. It's done now.

Today, I need to get mail, hit the library, meet a friend for lunch, and go to school for the end of year Popsicle Party.


Cheers!
mouse

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Weekly Weigh In: 5/26/15

Dear Friends and Family,

this week's weight loss: 0.2 pounds
total weight loss: 6.8 pounds

Sigh. 0.2 pounds. Well, I knew it would be a tough weigh in after last week's 2.2 pounds. Added to that, my sister was in town for the weekend and I ate out more than I typically do and drank less water than I should have and slept less than I really should have. I guess I should be happy that I didn't gain. And, I am happy that I didn't gain. A week ago I would have been ecstatic with my weight today so it's all a matter of perspective.

6.8 pounds. It's enough to feel like I've made progress. But, it's also not enough because it's still easy to slip back into old habits and regain the weight - a pound here, two pounds there, and before you know it total weight loss equals zero. Today, I'll drink my water and eat my fruits and vegetables and see where I am tomorrow.


Cheers!
mouse

Friday, May 22, 2015

Down Under

Dear Friends and Family,

It's Friday and I've got a little time. So, I think I'll write about Australia.

We went to Australia in March for spring break. Overall, it was an amazing trip. All of our flights (outside of our first one) left on time. All of our luggage made each connection. All of our hotels and rental cars were waiting for us when we needed them. The weather was warm and sunny with the exception of one day in Sydney. So, really, everything was lined up for an amazing trip.

Day 1, Saturday, we left home for the airport for our flight to Los Angeles. We had an intentionally long layover in LA to go shopping at P's favorite clothing store and to give us a chance to stretch our legs before the long flight to Melbourne. Unfortunately, our flight was delayed several hours so we had just enough time to race over to the store before it closed. We made it and bought some pieces to add to P's spring wardrobe. We had time for In-N-Out burgers for dinner. P surprised us all by eating three burger patties for dinner. We thought we were safe with two, but she must have been hungrier than we realized. Mr. mouse ended up eating one lettuce and tomato sandwich and one burger for dinner. Sometime late Saturday night we boarded the plane for Australia. We were all ready for bed which was perfect because it was evening in Australia.

Sunday, I'm not sure what happened to Sunday. I think the international date line happened to Sunday.

Day 2, Monday, we arrived in Melbourne well fed and well rested. We were all feeling a little grubby, but decided to skip the shower and headed out to Healesville Sanctuary, a zoo specializing in native Australian animals. En route, we picked up some cookies, some meat pies, some hot cross buns and some drinks. When we travel, we always pick up odds and ends to snack on and for breakfast. That way we're not spending all of our time and money foraging for food. At Healesville, we got to see kangaroos, koalas, platypuses, echidnas, and wallabies. We made it in time for a show on Birds of Prey that we really enjoyed and another one on platypuses that was fun. P had time to paint two rocks that we took with us on the trip and to play in the playground before we headed back to the kangaroo area for our kangaroo encounter. She was a little scared during the encounter, but afterward she said she had fun meeting the kangaroo. We bought a stuffed kangaroo at the gift shop and she named in Lacey after the kangaroo we met during the encounter. Monday night we checked into our hotel, Wyndham on William, and P promptly grabbed the first room with the king sized bed. We laughed and rolled the two twins together in the second room and called it good. The Wyndham has a lovely view from the rooftop, but the pool up there was a little too cold for a long swim. We came down and ate a combination of take out (spaghetti, soupy dumplings, regular dumplings and french fries) and meat pies for dinner. The shower felt so good.

Day 3, Tuesday, we packed our bags and checked out of the hotel. We spent the first part of the morning wandering around Federation Square. P and I went to an exhibit on local artists while Mr. mouse went to one on Australian cars. We took some obligatory tourist photos in classic tourist spots before heading out in search of fun neighborhoods in Melbourne further afield from the main tourist city center. Unfortunately, it turned out to be a bit of a bust so we picked up take-out (chow fun and maybe something else) and headed to the airport for our flight to Cairns. We ate while waiting to board the plane and read and dozed on the flight. We landed in Cairns, loaded up the car and drove out to Port Douglas. We checked into our hotel, Sheraton Port Douglas Resort, carried P to the room, and fell happily asleep.

Day 4, Wednesday, we didn't have anything planned for Wednesday. We left it free to ensure we had time to hang out and play in the pool since P loves playing in the pool when we travel. The pools at the Sheraton didn't disappoint. The pools were warm and empty and it was just perfect for spending the day relaxing. We went out to the beach briefly before heading back to the hotel for lunch. Mr. mouse and I got a beer and smoothie to go with the last of the meat pies while P feasted on the kid's fish and chips. Before we knew it, it was time for dinner. We headed back into the room and got clean before applying the bug spray and heading out. Chilly's Pizza has delicious pizzas and the pasta was yummy as well. We couldn't stop eating and we had leftovers to bring back to our room. We found an ice cream place, Wicked Ice Creams, for dessert before heading back to the room.

Day 5, Thursday, we had the first of our two snorkel trips planned for Thursday. Since P had become such a good swimmer, I thought it would be criminal to visit Australia and not take her to see the Great Barrier Reef. And, after much research, we decided to skip the pontoons that we had visited in 1999 because it seemed like they had become overrun and the reef had degraded as a result. And, we skipped the islands because I wasn't as impressed with the islands the last time we were in Australia. So, that left the smaller cruise boats. Our first one, Calypso, held 60 passengers and five crew. We sailed out to three points on Opal Reef. The first site was the most impressive, by far, and P lasted 50 minutes of our allotted 60 minutes in the water. She didn't do as well at the second and third sites because the waves were choppier and the fish were bigger. Added to that, we felt time pressure since we were at each site for only an hour. Ultimately, Mr. mouse kept her company while I snorkeled at one site and I kept her company while Mr. mouse snorkeled at the other. It wasn't ideal, but I was glad we got the first site in together as a family. I was worried about the next day because it would be a waste if she refused to get in the water. But, back to Thursday, we got back to the hotel, practiced snorkeling some more in the pool, got clean, and ate leftovers for dinner. At least that's what I think we ate for dinner because I don't have any dinner locations in my notes. Plus, I know we skipped on the bug spray and we got bug bites over the night in the room. I found the guilty mosquito the next morning. It was bloated. I squashed it.

Day 6, Friday, we had the second of our two snorkel trips. This time we sailed out on Synergy with nine other passengers and two crew members. P made fast friends with a boy named Finn who was a year older than her. Synergy goes to one location on Tongue Reef for three hours. That removed the time pressure since it was plenty of time to see the reef without feeling rushed to get back in the boat to get to the next site. We took our time getting in the water, maybe 15 or 20 minutes, and swam out to the reef. P had fun pointing out the different coral formations and we used our hand signals to check on each other and make sure everyone was okay. We were out about 40 minutes before coming back in for lunch. After lunch, P wanted a break, and fortunately for us, so did Finn and his mom. So, Mr. mouse and I headed back out to the reef while P played on the boat. Agatha, one of the crew, asked if she could take P out if P wanted to go out again and we said yes. At some point while snorkeling we looked up to see Finn and P and Agatha swimming back out to the reef. Agatha had promised P and Finn that she would find Nemo for them. And, she did. P was thrilled. Afterwards, we took P for one last round in the water before we all headed back to the boat. It could not have been a better day. Except it was because when we got back to the hotel for one last dip in the pool, we got to see a bunch of REALLY large bats head out after sunset for their nightly foraging frenzy. Dinner was peri-peri chicken pizza from Domino's and chicken for P from Dave's Take-a-Way.

Day 7, Saturday, we drove down at the crack of dawn for our flight from Cairns to Sydney. When we got to Sydney, it was grey and raining on and off. We checked into our hotel, the Radisson Blu, and walked over to see the Opera House and the bridge. It was wet, but we got P to record a video talking about the weather in Spanish and we found a tourist who we trusted to compose the picture and posed for a picture with the Opera House in the background. After a quick walk back to the hotel and our car, we drove over to Newtown. There P got to see where "Sky Full of Stars" was filmed. She walked down the main street pretending to be Chris Martin. It was precious. After our reenactment, we found lunch. P had sushi. I had tofu soup. Mr. mouse had a little of each. We picked up some meat pies and Clem's Fried Chicken for dinner. P and Mr. mouse bought me two purses. And, we went back to the hotel. The pool was super crowded, but we found a way to make it work.

Day 8, Sunday, we drove down to the Opera House for one last photo since it was bright and sunny in the morning. Then, we headed to the airport for our long ride home. In hindsight we should have napped Saturday night instead of sleeping the full night. But we didn't. So, it was a little tough when we got on the plane, ate "dinner" and tried to go to sleep. We all fell asleep, but with a full night's sleep behind us and loud people around us, there was no way we were going to sleep the bulk of the flight over from Sydney to Los Angeles. We watched a lot of movies. P journaled about the trip. We fidgeted. We rested. We made the time go by. We landed in LA not quite on local time, but not too far off either. After customs, we boarded our flight back home. We all dozed on it which gave me a bad feeling about jet lag since we should have been up. When we landed we knew we needed to stay up until bedtime or around 8 o'clock whichever came first. Fortunately we did and the day that seemed like it would go on forever (we crossed the date line in the other direction on the way back so somehow we had a morning in Sydney followed by 20 hours of travel followed by and afternoon and evening at home and it was still Sunday) came to an end. I almost forgot, P was excited to see that the Easter bunny had visited while we were gone. She had fun hunting down the eggs while we started unpacking.

Still with me? And, that, my friends, was our trip to Australia. It really was a special trip - one I will remember for a long time to come. And, now that P is older, one she may remember for a long time to come. We'll see.


Cheers!
mouse

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Fun Times with My 6 Year Old

Dear Friends and Family,

P is always a little sad when Mr. mouse tells her he has a business trip. But, as long as it is a short one, she seems to do okay. In fact, to be honest, it's better than okay. We have fewer meltdowns, we get to bed earlier, we enjoy each other's company more. When the trips get long, we inevitably get the "I miss Daddy" meltdown that lasts for 20+ minutes, but with short trips it seems to be okay.

Mr. mouse left yesterday morning for a short trip. He'll be back today. Yesterday, P and I got ready in the morning. It was a little bit of a scramble, but we got to school about 5 minutes early so I'll consider it a successful drop off. If we had been super efficient, we would have had time for a doughnut and the bus, but I'm not going to be picky. I picked up P in the afternoon and she had a play date with one of her close friends from school.

We ate dinner together. P played while I filled the tub. She had a bath followed by tub time. We got into our pajamas, brushed our teeth, and went to bed together. We both slept through the night. I'll consider it a success.

Today, we need to get to school a little early so I need to go wake her soon. Hopefully today goes as smoothly as yesterday did.


Cheers!
mouse

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Feeling Stifled

Dear Friends and Family,

I want to write about a topic, and 99 out of 100 times when I want to write about a topic, I write about it.

This time, I'm choosing not to write about it despite wanting to write about it. I feel like it makes my world a little sadder because to some extent this journal will be my memory of today and yesterday in years to come. And, in years to come, I'm not sure I'll remember why I chose to intentionally leave a blank page in my book.

Just as a reminder to my future self: it was a good day, not a bad day, a very good day.


Cheers!
mouse

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Weekly Weigh In: 5/19/15

Dear Friends and Family,

this week's weight loss: 2.2 pounds
total weight loss: 6.6 pounds

This week was definitely easier than last week. Definitely. Let's hope that doesn't mean this upcoming week is going to be a bear.

6.6 pounds. That feels real. There's a part of me that knows I wouldn't have lost 6.6 pounds without trying. So, trying is worth it. I guess there's no new magic I need to work between now and next Tuesday. I just need to keep doing what I'm doing which is fine with me. Hopefully it's not an "up" week next week. I seem to remember weeks in my last journey where a big "down" week was followed by a small "up" week. I just need to remember that it's a journey and one week can't derail me.

6.6, yeah!


Cheers!
mouse

Monday, May 18, 2015

05.18.15: It Was Supposed to Rain, but it Didn't

Dear Friends and Family,

It was supposed to rain this weekend, but it didn't.

Saturday, we went out to the suburbs to pick up a new bicycle for P. The day didn't start out on the right foot. We called ahead. They told us they would hold a particular bike for us. We got there. The bike was gone, apparently sold while we were driving over. We didn't really have enough time to shop around because we had guests coming over for dinner. It was looking like it was going to be a waste of a day. After leaving the store, we turned around and went back in because Mr. mouse wanted to size out helmets for P. While he was looking at helmets, P was standing on a bike, passing the time. By the time Mr. mouse picked out a helmet that fit P, she had fallen in love with the bike she had been playing with. It was a little more than we had in our budget, but since the four grandparents were insistent on buying P her bicycle, we went with it. It would be $10 more each of them, which didn't seem like it was worth quibbling over.

Back in the car, late for dinner, I texted our guests to check on their schedule. They were running behind too. We made it to the grocery and home in time to make dinner and enjoy the evening.

Sunday, we went to church. Then, P had a play date while Mr. mouse and I finally confronted the GIGANTIC WHITE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM keeping the 800 POUND GORILLA company. There was a weekend in June that had a wedding combined with a school reunion and dance recital and a sporting event we had already purchased tickets for. All in two days, none in the same city. After many snide remarks and ill will, we finally settled on a plan that involves splitting up for the weekend, getting two of the four accomplished.

Sunday night, P spent the evening with Mr. mouse while I met a friend for coffee and to work on my website. It's launched, but I'll continue to modify it now that it's live. Now, it's Monday and I've got a busy day ahead of me.


Cheers!
mouse

Friday, May 15, 2015

Friday, Free Day

Dear Friends and Family,

It's Friday and I don't have to go to P's school to volunteer. I've got the whole day to myself. Well, the whole day until I need to go pick up P.

I think I'll try to get a few things done.


Cheers!
mouse

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Top 3 Update

Dear Friends and Family,

It's been a tough spring. And, we're on the cusp of heading into summer. I think I need to revisit my Top 3 because I can't even remember the last time I gave it any thought.

Two things that I've got momentum on that I'd like to keep momentum on are working towards my goal weight and going through the clutter the house. I'd love to see how much I can accomplish between now and the end of summer vacation against both of these goals.

And, that leaves me with space for one more item. And, since it's summer vacation and there's a couple of weeks when P is off and almost a month when she's in half day camp, my last area of focus will be spending time with P and enjoying summer vacation together.


Cheers!
mouse

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Things I Think of That Make People Think I'm Crazy

Dear Friends and Family,

Ready?

This one is on the topic of abortion, that hot button that gets so many people riled up.

I think there's something to be said for states and their interest in protecting life once you can define life. I also think there are people who really do believe it is murder. But, I'm 100% on the side of the right of the woman to made decisions that concern her body, really at any point in time up until and after the baby is born.

This is my idea, which of course would never happen, but in mouse's world it would.

If it's born, and neither parent wants it, they should be able to give it up for adoption. If it's not viable, the woman should be allowed to abort it. If it's viable, the woman should be allowed to have it removed from her body. If someone somewhere has an interest in paying for the baby's care (it's not a fetus anymore, just a very premature baby) and adopting it, they can. It'd essentially be adoption, but of very premature babies.

And, I know exactly what would happen. No one would go this route, because, really, who would want to pay for the cost of neonatal care? Why pay for it when you can get it for free? Let's just force another human being to do something against their will. It's a slippery slope that ends in slavery, but it's apparently one we're okay with.

My world would be different. Someone would have to pay for it or we'd be done fooling ourselves on viability and women could go back to owning their own bodies.

Cheers!
mouse

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Weekly Weigh In: 5/12/15

Dear Friends and Family,

this week's weight loss: 1.0 pounds
total weight loss: 4.4 pounds

That was a lot of work for one pound. There were many moments this past week when I felt hungry. Part of that is my own fault because didn't really do much on the fruit and vegetable and water side so I wasn't leaving my stomach much work to do. Part of it is just chance. Between the birthday trip and biology, this week is a random "heavier" week - one of those weeks when you do everything right and don't have a lot to show for it.

But, before I lose perspective, it's still a pound loss. A pound is still a pound. And, I knew there would be weeks when this would be tough. This was a tough week. I'm still on a journey. And, on a positive note, while 4.4 pounds isn't a ton, I feel like my face was less puffy in P's birthday photos than in our Australia trip photos. So, I guess it's progress. I'll take less puffy.

Hopefully this next week is an easier week. I'll try and be better about my fruit and my water so I'm not walking around feeling hungry all week.


Cheers!
mouse

Monday, May 11, 2015

05.11.15: Birthday Weekend

Dear Friends and Family,

Instead of a birthday party, we decided to celebrate P's birthday with a weekend trip to Cincinnati, the city's whose name I can never remember how to spell. I'd either drop the extra n or add one more n and t. But, that's just me.

We flew over on Saturday afternoon for an overnight at the Cincinnati Museum of Natural History and Science. The theme for the evenings was Caves. We had two guided tours, one of a recreation of a limestone cave and one of cave art exhibit. Then, we had time to explore the museum on our own. P was precious as she led us for our own exploration of the cave. It was just the three of us. She was so cognizant of being quiet we couldn't help giggling. As a last desperate measure to remind us to be quiet, she put her left index finger on her lips and the right index and middle finger in the shape of a V in the air, the sign they use at school to remind the students to be quiet.

She slept like a champ. I couldn't fall asleep, so I spent half the night watching her.

Sunday, we flew back from our overnight. The two men in row 20 reminded me why I believe America can still be a great country. They volunteered to switch seats with P and me so that we could sit together. They made my day. When we landed, we checked into a hotel and let P go swimming. After a lunch of sushi from P's favorite restaurant, P went back to the pool with Mr. mouse while I napped. We drove home and opened presents before turning in for the evening.

I can't end this post without first writing about my Mother's Day present from P. Friday night, P stayed up with Mr. mouse and made a photo book for me. She had the idea and picked out photos from her first six years. She cut them out, pasted them onto pages and bound it as a book. I love it! It was the best present ever.


Cheers!
mouse

Friday, May 08, 2015

Happy Friday

Dear Friends and Family,

Yesterday, I packed all of the bags and headed out to buy P's presents. I found a cute dress, a fun Playmobil set, and added a batch of headbands and hair clips. Mr. mouse ordered a book she wanted and I had thought ahead and ordered one book and two sewing kits she wanted. It's not a lot of stuff, but there's not a lot of stuff she wants or needs so it feels okay. My sister and both sets of grandparents are getting the big gifts. She's getting a teal version of her recital dress from my sister and a new bicycle and helmet from the grandparents. They both want to buy it for her so we're letting them split the bill. She's a lucky kid.

Yesterday, I also found a sewing kit for one of P's best friends. The two of them were born less than a week apart and her friend asked us to join them for their birthday dinner. It was a special night. We're a lucky family.

Speaking of birthday dinner, I survived the birthday dinner with no ill consequences. I ate a lighter lunch which in a way set me up for success, but in an illogical way set me up for failure. I was starving by 2 o'clock which meant I would be ravenous by dinner time. So, I improvised and bought a Diet Coke to have in the afternoon. It kept the hunger at bay so I walked into the restaurant feeling sane. Normally, when we eat at this particular restaurant, I munch on tortilla chips. Then, I have a tamale. Then, I have 2-3 fajitas because they are so yummy. Last night, I skipped on the chips and the tamale and waited for my fajitas. I had two fajitas followed by a handful of chips. I had a tiny piece of birthday cake and left feeling like I did better than I would have done without my eating plan. I'm a lucky mouse.


Cheers!
mouse

Thursday, May 07, 2015

Happy Thursday

Dear Friends and Family,

It's Thursday and after multiple weeks of feeling blah, today I feel good. It might be because it's supposed to be sunny today. It might be because I had a good weigh-in this morning. It might be because I have finally made some progress on my to do list. Whatever it is, I'll take it. No need to over think feeling good.

Today, I think I will go shopping for some presents for P. Honestly, if I had done this earlier I could have simply made a trip to the mailbox and picked it all up in one fell swoop, but I didn't do it earlier so I think I'll have to do it the old fashioned way and go to the stores.


Cheers!
mouse

Wednesday, May 06, 2015

Arrgghh

Dear Friends and Family,

To make this week even more trying, it's my grumpy week when anything and everything seems to make me angry. Yesterday's weather was a foul mix of fog and damp cold. Yesterday's dinner tasted like salt. Yesterday's budget review made me feel like we were spiraling out of control. See? Everything seemed to make me angry.

The only thing that made me really really happy was catching up on emails. I had a pile of unread emails and now I have five which is an acceptable number to let sit. They're attachments I need to work on or things I need to take the time to read or forms I need to fill out. I can deal with five.

This morning I rejiggered the budget to make the rest of the month work. And, I guess I'll plow through my water today to get rid of the over-salted feeling. And, hopefully, when all is said and done I'll feel less grumpy. And, if not, I'll at least realize it's my grumpy week.


Arrgghh!
mouse

Tuesday, May 05, 2015

Weekly Weigh In: 5/5/15

Dear Friends and Family,

this week's weight loss: 1.6 pounds
total weight loss: 3.4 pounds

It's Tuesday. And since I'm back on Weight Watchers it's weigh-in day. This week I lost 1.6 pounds which I'm happy with. I was a lot less ambitious about getting everything in so while I made it a point to incorporate more fruits and vegetables into my diet, I didn't walk around feeling bloated and blah all week. I'll take a slightly slower weight loss for not feeling blah. Feeling blah is low on my list of things to do.

These upcoming weeks are big weeks for me, mentally. In my head, I know that if I hadn't decided to make changes in my life, I'd still be 3.4 pounds heavier. But, in my heart, I feel that there's natural fluctuation in my weight, and maybe I would have lost the 3.4 pounds or some portion of it through natural day-to-day fluctuation. But, at some point, my heart catches up with my head and realizes that natural day-to-day fluctuation isn't what is driving the weight loss. Then, the mental game becomes easier. Once you have faith, it's easy to continue. Right now, I'm in that grey area where I tell myself I should have faith, but I'm not quite there yet.

So, this week I'll continue to try and follow the plan and I'll see where next Tuesday finds me.


Cheers!
mouse

Monday, May 04, 2015

05.04.15: Birthday Party Weekend

Dear Friends and Family,

It's Monday and P is getting ready for school with Mr. mouse.

Saturday, P had school. Mr. mouse had house cleaning. I had a chance to look at window treatments online. After school, P and I went to watch a play while Mr. mouse cleaned up more. We finished off the day with a trip out to the suburbs for a surprise 50th birthday party for one of Mr. mouse's colleagues.

Sunday, we slept in. We went to church. We ate lunch. We went to one of P's best friend's birthday party. We came home. We went to sleep.

Mechanistically, it doesn't sounds like much of anything. But, for me, both parties were a wonderful chance to talk with adults and interact socially. I miss that now that I work alone.

Time to get started on the day.


Cheers!
mouse

Friday, May 01, 2015

"Home Theater" Update and Retirement Update

Dear Friends and Family,

Well, we made all of the changes last night. And, if I'm going to be 100% honest, it doesn't look all that much different from before we made the changes. I take that back. I looked at a photograph before and after and it does look different. I guess it'll just take some getting used to. The funny thing about clutter is that sometimes you get so used to it that when you get rid of it your eye misses the change. Once you get used to the new space, you don't want to go back, but the transition is odd.

Onto retirement update. We do that every month end. I'm not sure what metric I should be using. I guess there's three that I really care about. Goal 1: what we need for our retirement, best case scenario. Goal 2: what we need for retirement, worst case scenario. Goal 3: what we need if we want an annuity that will eventually become P's inheritance.
  1. Goal 1: 95%
  2. Goal 2: 86%
  3. Goal 3: 67%
Some months we make money. Some months we lose money. In a way, I think of this as "my" money. No, I don't think I own the money. I know it's money I share with Mr. mouse. I think of it as my money because the money we earn on it replaces my former income. My paycheck always went towards deleveraging. First it went towards student debt. Then it went towards the house. Most recently it went towards retirement savings. Now, it grows enough by itself that I don't feel guilty taking the time to be with P and to work on my own business. Mr. mouse's money is what puts food on the table, clothes on our back and the heat turned on. It doesn't put a roof over our head, because I was able to provide that. We're a good team.

Anyways, hopefully, one day in the far future all three numbers will be 100%. I'll feel like we accomplished something then. But, if we never hit those numbers that's okay too. I know we accomplished something just by measuring our progress.


Cheers!
mouse